Dear Dear

i ask for my wish ahead of time
give me the energy to survive tonight
and perhaps tomorrow morning

i’ve set myself such impossible goals
and i’m tired of always being tired
give me the strength to deal
with what i have to deal with

no, i am over him
i’m just not over the idea of “him”

i’m lazy, shy, and stupid

and a thousand sufferings

when they get married?
and what if they dont?
do they keep on going and going
and until what?
until they expire?
and how long is that?
fifteen years?
twenty years?

i must have expired already
i’m rotting
i will bear no fruit
i can’t get up